Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Kenyan Bug..... incurable disease

I made it back to the states, I have almost finished my 40 day supply of malaria pills, I am healthy, I didn't get typhoid, malaria, travelers bug, or any other infection.... except one! I got one! It's incurable, but so I've heard it is a bug that gets spread easily, and many have this bug...

You see this bug can be BIG or small. This bug doesn't hit everybody, but it from what I have seen is it bites anyone who steps in the country... The  Kenyan bug is for some very small and the side effects last a few weeks.... For others it's medium and lasts awhile.... and for some it's deadly. changing your life forever. rapidly changing your life. It's extremely scary and wonderful.

How the bug works:

I believe as soon as you walk into the country and smell the air of Kenya, the bug bites. The bug bites your heart. It doesn't stop biting till you get back to the states, and even then sometimes it never releases.

So let me tell you about my bug....

I think this bug has been waiting for me for eleven years. I knew at age 10 I was called to missions, and later found out Africa.... This bug I think was waiting for me as soon as I stepped out of the airport and into Kenyan air. I believe it took hold, and it wasn't till Sunday at church that I realized that this bug was NEVER going away.... The moment I stepped into church at Mattaw, I realized how much this bug had attacked my heart. I cried the whole time during church. The Holy Spirit was definitely stirring my heart and that pesky little Kenyan bug was biting down hard! Through out the week, I felt the bug biting down harder... I watched  my team members get bit and watching the bug take hold of their lives. It was awesome. I believe while I was at Birunda Rescue Center I finally realized I was at the mercy of the bug.... I was one of the many cases of incurable bites of the bug.

You see, this bug, is not really a bug (if you couldn't guess already). This bug is God breaking my heart and showing me my purpose for my life. I have been back almost a month, and I'll be real honest it has SUCKED being back. I look at spending money differently, I look at meals differently, I still reach for a bottle of water to brush my teeth. I have yet to wear full out make up or really care about how I look.... I guess this trip showed me how fortunate I really am in this world of mine.

Lately, I can't imagine my life without Africa (Kenya) in it. I thought  maybe this would be like a youth come back on FIRE and a few weeks you get back into life and you go back to "normal", but my "normal" isn't my normal anymore.... heck I don't know what my normal is.... My heart longs to be in Kenya, if someone gave me the money right now, no lie, I'd be on a plane tomorrow.

There's a song by Building 429. I'm gonna post it for you,

This song really describes my life right now... I think when you hear a song, God speaks to you in different ways.... for me I took it a little different than maybe some would. I'd like to share it with you and then I'll end.

Sometimes it feels like I'm watching from the outside (Here in the states)
Sometimes it feels like I'm breathing but am I alive (What am I doing)
I will keep searching for answers that aren't here to find (How can I help)

All I know is I'm not home yet  (not Kenya yet)
This is not where I belong (this is not where I belong)
Take this world and give me Jesus  (I just want to serve you)
This is not where I belong (I want to love those sweet babies)

So when the walls come falling down on me (hard days in life)
And when I'm lost in the current of a raging sea (attacks from the enemy)
I have this blessed assurance holding me. (it's all for Jesus)

All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

When the earth shakes I wanna be found in You (When you call me, I want others to see you)
When the lights fade I wanna be found in You (When there's no hope I want them to see you)

All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

Where I belong, where I belong
Where I belong, where I belong

I am learning every day that God has called me to Kenya... He has yet to reveal if it's full time, part time, summer time, or what. Here is what I do know... God called me to love EVERYWHERE. So while I am here in San Angelo, I will love on people here, children here, coworkers here, family here, friends here. When he reveals more of his plan I will react and follow. Right now, I'm raising money for Birunda Rescue Center. I'm  telling people about the needs of Kenya and what God is doing, and I'm showing the love of Jesus to people here in the states....

Please continue to pray for clarity and patience! (I know that is dangerous thing to pray for heehee). I have an incurable disease called the Kenyan bug, my heart is longing to be back in the country.... it's a bug that I love to talk about, but beware... it's contagious! ;)

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